Ok snide comments aside, it has been brought to my attention that perhaps this blog is a bit unbalanced in my portrayal of certain people. I believe many of these to be misinterpreted but thought it time to take a moment to balance out the blog and publicly clear up anything that could be misconstrued. We’ll start off with some easy ones before getting in to the tough ones. I will explain why as I get to the end, but let’s get started:
Debatable Better Half- This is not a term meant to belittle my husband. It’s a dig at society. For the record, better half most commonly refers to the female part of a couple. In my opinion, which is all this blog is, neither of you are the better half.. in fact it could be debated every day who gets the title, it really could go either way. So my referring to my husband as the debatable better half, is my way of saying society has assigned the role to women. I’m saying that is debatable. For reference, I found this nifty site: http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/my-better-half.html .
Site Traffic– Yes, rarely referenced in my blog but just something to clear up. I am barely a blip on the radar. Although I joined up for DCBlogs a few weeks ago, I am still pretty much writing for myself and a few friends- as evidenced by my blog stats. On average, I get about 3-5 folks a day. Consider me the book at the store that they ordered a copy of and filed under obscure reference.
My Mom Curses a lot- Sorry that one is completely on target as written. That little woman sounds quite like the truck driver.
Unapologetic- When I say that, I do not mean I don’t apologize and feel bad for things. What I mean is that I spend a lot of my time saying I’m sorry and don’t be offended etc in real life, but since I attempt to be cryptic and abstract in my thoughts on this blog- I don’t feel like I have to say it. I’m really just attempting to share my feelings. If you misinterpret something I’ve written and apply it to yourself, then, by all means I’m sorry.
Amalgamations- The majority of my entries are very abstract in who they are about for a reason. It isn’t one person, it’s a combination. Mostly an entry forms because there has been a general theme in my day. If you read it and applied it to yourself, you may have been part right but likely it was not about just you.
Flawless- No, I’m not. I do not do many things right. I am in fact Flaw-Full. Maybe not a word, but you do get what I mean.
Bias- Obviously, this blog is biased. It is my thoughts and my way of feeling and my interpretation. If I knew what other people were thinking and could share their feelings, I’d be psychic. As it stands, all I can do is share my side.
I’m sure there is plenty more I could clear up but I’m sure you are seeing the pattern.
OK, so why am I clearing this up now. Maybe because my blog was found, maybe because this blog has not been negative in so long, maybe because I feel bad, maybe because I think its time. The real answer is I love my husband and if anyone interprets this blog to mean I don’t, I want to clear that up. See, as the few of you who read this know, I didn’t tell him about the blog. Yes, I lied. Well, hid I guess is more accurate. Lots of reasons I suppose but none of them coming to mind right now. Mostly because it’s been about 6-7 months and things are completely different but at the end of the day it was the wrong thing to do to share what I was thinking with you guys and not with him.
I may not have handled the confrontation so well either. When I got caught, I may have been a bit less than compassionate as I was a bit scared. Although, I know what I meant in these entries and I knew how I felt, the interpretation was shocking and a bit staggering.
So now for specific clarifications…. I love my husband. Yes, we had some issues when I had first started this blog but nothing’s perfect and they certainly weren’t meant to come across like they were his fault entirely. Again, the point of this was to add balance as well as clear things up so here goes. Luckily, it’s fairly easy since I just had this conversation yesterday.
Random presents. He’s not lame enough to hand me roses and think that’s the best present ever. Although I do love the roses occasionally, I get little presents all the time because he was listening. They may sometimes by very silly but they are always thoughtful and always totally out of nowhere because he was just thinking of me.
Weekend Coffee Service– Every Saturday and Sunday I get coffee brought to me in bed. This Saturday morning I got surprised with breakfast. Again random, when I woke up he was cooking some eggs and bacon and yummy foods because he was going to leave me for the weekend to go hiking with his friends.
Friday night HT– We have a standing date at the supermarket every Friday. It may not be glamorous but we never miss it and it’s fun.
Last of his Food- There is nothing that gets to this girls heart faster than food. And even if it is his favorite food in the entire world and he is starving after driving hundreds of miles to take me away for the weekend, he will still feed me his last bite- without telling me of course cuz otherwise I wouldn’t take it!
Basically, he’s pretty cool and let’s face it incredibly attractive. While I am doing this because I think its right, it in no way changes that this is how I feel. Like I said, I have this blog to be honest about my feelings and share my side. So here is my side, I fucked up- no great surprise there since I am flaw-full.
OK well, I could go on but really here was the point of this very long entry. I really did hurt someone I love, no matter how unintentional it was and if one person can misinterpret this stuff, I want to make sure no one else can.
I know this doesn’t change anything BUT at least it’s out there.